My creative ambitions can be exemplified by pendulum that perpetually swings between dull and fiery passion. Unfortunately life seems to constantly stick its chubby little finger in the way and keep it pointed towards dull. I constantly find myself in this uninspired rut that just eats away at me. I feel this pressure from myself not allow myself to be complacent but to keep excelling until I achieve something greater. Then the self criticism starts and I start tearing apart previous work until I find something I'm fond of... Then I tear the rest of it up.
Since I decided to try and be more active on DA, I started going through the hundreds of deviation stacks in my watch. That's when I came across `zemotion
No one really knows this but `zemotion
is one of the reasons I first made a deviantart account. She's one of the first people I ever followed on DA. She's been my absolute photographic idol, muse, and inspiration. She's what sparked my interest in photography to begin with. As I looked through her most recent work all of those feelings from when I first viewed her photographs came flooding back to me. It was so overwhelming. I just felt that fire being lit immediately.
So now I have a goal: I want to do my first real artsy, giant, editorial type photoshoot before the end of this year.
It's going to be so much work but I'm so incredibly excited and pumped. I really want this more than anything. I want to use photography as my creative outlet and these editorial type shoots will really allow me to do this.
Gah, now I just have to figure out what the hell I'm going to convey. Stay tuned!!!