Prinjack

My creative ambitions can be exemplified by pendulum that perpetually swings between dull and fiery passion. Unfortunately life seems to constantly stick its chubby little finger in the way and keep it pointed towards dull. I constantly find myself in this uninspired rut that just eats away at me. I feel this pressure from myself not allow myself to be complacent but to keep excelling until I achieve something greater. Then the self criticism starts and I start tearing apart previous work until I find something I'm fond of... Then I tear the rest of it up.

Since I decided to try and be more active on DA, I started going through the hundreds of deviation stacks in my watch. That's when I came across `zemotion's work.

No one really knows this but `zemotion is one of the reasons I first made a deviantart account. She's one of the first people I ever followed on DA. She's been my absolute photographic idol, muse, and inspiration. She's what sparked my interest in photography to begin with. As I looked through her most recent work all of those feelings from when I first viewed her photographs came flooding back to me. It was so overwhelming. I just felt that fire being lit immediately.

So now I have a goal: I want to do my first real artsy, giant, editorial type photoshoot before the end of this year.

It's going to be so much work but I'm so incredibly excited and pumped. I really want this more than anything. I want to use photography as my creative outlet and these editorial type shoots will really allow me to do this.

Gah, now I just have to figure out what the hell I'm going to convey. Stay tuned!!!

Hello there!

I realize I hardly ever update on here and there's really multiple reasons for that so I'll try to explain each of them the best I can.

THE FIRST REASON:
I have had an extremely hectic high school career; the last two years being the most hectic to date. I've struggled with nearly every after school special-like occurrence. I swear my life is One Tree Hill and I just happen to pretty much be P. Sawyer.
Over the past year I've also been involved in a lot more school activities again. I was a part of every production minor or major and I also am directing a one act play that premieres Monday night. All of this has taken up a huge portion of my time.

LE SECOND REASON:
Lack of inspiration has been one of the biggest causes for lack of production. I find I produce the best material when I'm inspired to do so rather than forcing myself to. Considering my emotional state has been off the walls for most of the past two years or so, I just haven't had any real desire to produce. I didn't want to post something crappy, which just led me to not posting anything at all. I guess I'm my harshest critic.

MEDICAL/PERSONAL ISSUES:
Struggling/repressing the issues death, personal relationships,repairing myself my own psyche, and trying to become physically healthy has also been a huge time eater. Over the past year I was diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder as well as Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome, both of which has required many doctors visits. Those diagnosis have really helped me understand myself, my body, the connection to my emotional/mental well being.

Deviantart was the dumping ground for all of my preteen/teenage angst, frustration, and other emotional turmoil. Instead of expressing myself in any sort of healthy way I'd just write some little poem or just keep it bottled up. I never knew how to process, handle, and deal with my emotions in a way that was truly productive and helped me resolve whatever issue I may be having.

I've often considered deleting this account but I can't. Prinjack is just the title I use for everything. It's my... Alter-ego I guess would be the best way to put it. Prinjack is that person that I always wanted to be: the artist that created everything their mind threw up and made it into something worth paying attention to. I guess it took some time for me to realize that I am Prinjack. I am whoever I chose to be and only I can determine that. Although that thought seems simple you wouldn't believe the b.s. it took me to get me to see who I really am.

Although I'm not the same person I used to be, I want to continue pursuing art. I still have no freaking idea what kind of art I will be posting. Some days it could be random photography, other days it could be some form writing; in that way my style is the same. However I feel as though I am a completely different person than who I used to be therefore my content will be different. I want to produce more professional quality material. That means I won't be posting AS often, however when I do, hopefully you'll find it worth the wait. Anyway, I really hope you don't all hate me for waiting this long to say something.

Have a wonderful evening/day/morning.

P.S. I'm forever on tumblr.

I feel like I only write a journal entry on here every 6 months to a year. That's probably an incredibly accurate feeling though.

In the last 6 months I've been throwing myself into photography and dealing with personal issues. Honestly, it's a pain in the ass to post photography on this site. It takes just about forever for anything to load so I mostly just upload my stuff to my photography blog. I don't think I've really posted anything worthwhile in about a month or two though due to being way too busy and stressed to function properly. Gotta love finals. My exams are over this week so probably by next weekend I can actually start getting on the ball again with uploading to my blog and maybe even uploading a bit on here.

Anyways,
Hope you're having a lovely morning/noon/night/whatever.

Hello my loviessss~

THE TIME I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR ALL YEAR!! SUMMMERRR ALAAAASSS!! I have been surprisingly much more busy than I anticipated this summer. When I'm not running around with my friend Daniela or my mother, I'm writing, watching korean dramas, sleeping, OR LIKE TODAY: Photographing

My summer has honestly been much better than I could have ever anticipated. I'm just so very hesitant to get back to work. Ah well, everything good always comes to an end. Have a good one~

I HAVE A DSLR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sorry for ruining your brain with caps lock and a ton of exclamation points but I just needed to get that message across xD Expect much more photography now that I got this camera. I'm still trying to get my portfolio together but I'm posting parts of it on here for you guys as I find more things. I have so much to do and so little time left to do it! The semester is quickly drawing to a close and finals are looming near. Just a few more weeks until summer break and I'm not too sure I want it to be this close. I hope to take a trip somewhere this summer but so far chances are bad. I'm trying to see if I can stay with some relatives over in Puerto Rico but my mother is worried about me going off alone there with the crime rate so high. I think she forgets she's okay with shipping me off to New York. Ah well, wherever I end up, I think this summer will be a good one. I'll try to update more frequently, but let's be honest, we both know I slack off way too much on here.

Anyway, talk to you soon~